This is what I thought 2017 would be like right now:
This is how I thought I would be feeling in 2017:
But this is actually how I’m feeling:
People are constantly asking what I want to do with my life, and instead of saying “I have no idea”, which usually causes an awkward silence because the conversation has effectively been killed (this had happened too many times), I honestly just make it up and lie.
It sucks because I am surrounded by people who know what they want to do, and have already written out their 10 year career plan, whilst also factoring in their marriage and when they’ll have kids. They literally have a pinterest board for wedding dresses!!! And I struggle to choose what I want to have for lunch every day.
With the impending doom of uni choices coming, it’s really stressing out me out that I seem to be incapable of choosing what to do. Medicine? Spanish? Housewife? Maybe I’ll take a gap year and volunteer in Nicaragua. I’m joking about the housewife one. Don’t get me wrong, there is absolutely nothing wrong with being a housewife/househusband, but I think I’d like to be the breadwinner in my family, not too mention that spending too much time in the house would makes me go crazy.
But as of right now, I am trying to find positives. If I don’t, I may literally drown in all my negative thoughts. If you are going through the same thing, or just a completely different stressful crisis, let it all out. Not by crying. I’ve found that once I starts crying, I usually can’t stop. It’s helpful just to talk it through, or write it down.
If you’re in the same position as me, don’t forget to comment down below- I’d love to hear about your issues with unis and all of that stuff- we can stress together (and support each other)!